Chasing Fame: October 2009

Yessss I'm back! Please forgive my month hiatus! I have been all over the place physically, mentally and especially emotionally. I have been trying to get back in the groove of things since I moved from New York Back to Chicago. New York was amazing and my internship at Seventeen was simply unbelievable. I made great contacts, gained a boatload of experience and was introduced to a whole new world that was made just for me. New York is addictive. I have never felt so comfortable in an environment ever in my life. I was surrounded by such a diverse group of people who all seemed so creative and driven. Oh and I can't even explain how I fell so deeply in love with Brooklyn! My heart will never be able to let it go.

So you can only imagine the mix emotions I had when I returned back to Chicago. I left the place that I have been wanting to live since I was atleast 10 years old. Not only did I leave my ideal location but I also left my ideal career environment. Working for a major publication has also been a dream of mine since I was young girl. At first when I came back I believed that my experience was just a tease instead of motivation. I felt my dream had been snatched from me.

Originally once I returned here I was so distorted and was extremely worried if I will ever make i back to NY in my ideal situation again once I graduated. I was stressing to the point that my parents, professors and peers were telling me that I needed to calm down. After a couple of weeks I realized that everything works out how it is supposed to. My worrying was doing nothing but making me not sleep through the night and giving me a pounding headache.

So it was back to the basics! First and foremmost I had to get back aligned in God's Will. That was the reason why I made it to NY in the first place. If I get caught up in the glitz and the glam and forget my purpose there is no way I will ever get where I want to be. So instead of being overly obsessed with building my resume, Im getting back in touch with my soul. From writing to meditating to volunteering I'm going back to the basics. I realize I can't move faster than God. Patience and time will reveal everything I need to know about my future. So I will continue to look for opportunities but really pray about each decision I make. I graduate in about 6 months. If there was ever a time to be with aligned with God it's now. So if I get placed back in New York or across seas in London, I will have joy because I will be following the destination God placed in my heart.