**Back to the Basics**

Yessss I'm back! Please forgive my month hiatus! I have been all over the place physically, mentally and especially emotionally. I have been trying to get back in the groove of things since I moved from New York Back to Chicago. New York was amazing and my internship at Seventeen was simply unbelievable. I made great contacts, gained a boatload of experience and was introduced to a whole new world that was made just for me. New York is addictive. I have never felt so comfortable in an environment ever in my life. I was surrounded by such a diverse group of people who all seemed so creative and driven. Oh and I can't even explain how I fell so deeply in love with Brooklyn! My heart will never be able to let it go.

So you can only imagine the mix emotions I had when I returned back to Chicago. I left the place that I have been wanting to live since I was atleast 10 years old. Not only did I leave my ideal location but I also left my ideal career environment. Working for a major publication has also been a dream of mine since I was young girl. At first when I came back I believed that my experience was just a tease instead of motivation. I felt my dream had been snatched from me.

Originally once I returned here I was so distorted and was extremely worried if I will ever make i back to NY in my ideal situation again once I graduated. I was stressing to the point that my parents, professors and peers were telling me that I needed to calm down. After a couple of weeks I realized that everything works out how it is supposed to. My worrying was doing nothing but making me not sleep through the night and giving me a pounding headache.

So it was back to the basics! First and foremmost I had to get back aligned in God's Will. That was the reason why I made it to NY in the first place. If I get caught up in the glitz and the glam and forget my purpose there is no way I will ever get where I want to be. So instead of being overly obsessed with building my resume, Im getting back in touch with my soul. From writing to meditating to volunteering I'm going back to the basics. I realize I can't move faster than God. Patience and time will reveal everything I need to know about my future. So I will continue to look for opportunities but really pray about each decision I make. I graduate in about 6 months. If there was ever a time to be with aligned with God it's now. So if I get placed back in New York or across seas in London, I will have joy because I will be following the destination God placed in my heart.

More Steady Posts coming!

Miracles & Blessings

God Bless

**Gottex Spring 2010**

Some pieces from the Gottex show, which was pretty amazing. My camera was acting crazy but here are just a couple of photos.

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**A Shot of Inspiration**

"You're someone who is different, but who wants to be the same as everyone else. And that, in my view, is a serious illness."

-Paulo Coelho

**Fashion Week Sightings**

Me! In the tent waiting for my next show to start:0

Before I Walked in the tents....wet and raining but still amazing:)

I had an invitation to the show but missed it:( I was quite sad but I went around the corner and ran into him:)

Ms. Teyana Taylor Walked passed

Lol..I'm pretty sure I took this pic and she was thrown off:0 oops!

Footage from the Max Azria show. Estelle and Kelly Rowland were on the opposite side from where I was sitting ..

More Pics Coming........

**Quick Updates**

Greetings! i have been all over the place and have not been updating like I should have been. everytime I say I'm going to better, I feel like I do worse. So Ill give you

Quick Updates

-My 21st Birthday past and had an incredible time partying up in NY. Friends and sister came up for the weekend to help me celebrate.

-Fashion Week just ended. Iwas able to attend some shows that editors could not make. I have some footage and pictures. I'm upset I do not have more since I left mycamera at home for some of the shows:(

- My internship at Seventeen Magazine is winding down, I have a couple more weeks and its back to Chicago:( I might go into depression mode. I LOVE NY. The positive is that I graduate in March and will be back in New York ASAP!

Fashion Week Postings Coming Later on Today!

God Bless

Am I afraid of Myself?

The other day an old friend said I sounded like a workaholic. They weren't saying it as a negative comment but nonetheless they called me one. That's not the first time that I've heard the word "workaholic" while describing me.

I sat back and thought about it and I had to agree. I did not debate people when they say this statement, i just wanted to know why?

I've always told myself that I push myself so hard because I want to reach every goal that God has set in my heart. Which is very true! That's why even when I'm dead tired I will still find a way to push myself to a new level. I can't stand the feeling of not being productive. It's just time wasting when I could be actually making a change in my life or others. I know, I know I need to learn how to rest and take care of myself properly too.

But that's one reason of me being productive but the other reason is avoiding life's problems. I realized that as soon as I unwind and I'm not focus on completing a task I get bombarded with emotions, stress, and pain that I thought I tucked away. Yes they were tucked away but only temporarily until the next time I get idle time! Yes, I am believer that "idle time is the devil's workshop" and it can bring up unwated ideas. The more I was thinking about it, the more concerned I begin to feel. In one aspect it just seems like I run away or avoid unwanted emotions in life instead of dealing with them. How do you honestly deal with issues??

Does time really heals all wounds?? Another question asked myself. I have had emotions that I had erased over a year ago and they all began to pop up again when I saw the person or situation. I was always taught to keep going in life. Life happens but you can't stop living. What I'm soon finding out is that even though you might continue to live through life ,does it mean that you really deal with problems are just bypass them?

Epiphany of the Week: I purposely don't have downtime so I can keep my mind constantly busy and not have the past or things I buried won't arise again.

I feel like God is nudging saying that I can't continue like this because, its all will catch up with me one day.

Miracles & Blessings

God Bless

**Music Taste**

Goapele – Milk & Honey – NEW video


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